I am in my late forties and have lived with Panic Disorder/Agoraphobia nearly all my life. As a child I was always ill the first week of school, the first day of swimming lessons, and whenever our family traveled to far away places like the mall!
I believe in doing the impossible:
- I commit 3 hours of my day to commute to my job!
- I use the
homeless centerPublic Transportation System during my commute. Ok-I gave up after two and a half years, but I DO DRIVE THAT FREEWAY! - I travel throughout our state and stay in hotels,
but I have to have my electric blankie with me! - I enter stranger's homes to discuss
their stupiditytheir view of child welfare. - I
harrassaudit state child welfare workers,despite the fact they have a damn job; damned if they do and damned if they don't. I do this because I have a double MPA, that is I have a Master's degree in Public Administrationthat no one cares aboutin addition to Manipulative Panic Attacks, which cause co-workers to experience their own bouts of anxietywhen assigned to partner with me. - I remain active in my family life
as long as family comes to me - I maintain a responsibility within my church,
with a caveat that I can back out if needed. - I love to go to
mythe movie theater for premier movies so I can get the "real" experience.
I believe in drugs! I also believe in Cognitive Behavioral Therapies. I also believe in research! And I believe I have the right to accept myself just the way I am!
Why should this blog matter? It doesn't. I hope to share a good laugh at a different perspective on life.
Go ahead, laugh in the face of my Nemesis--I do!
